Sandy and I had an awesome vacation last week. We were given nine days in Mexico, and it was amazing: 80 degrees every day, great food and a beautiful beach. It was a perfect time for us to get away and rest. Sandy has been working crazy hours at the hospital, and Cornerstone for Generations has consumed lots of my time. We truly had a bit of “Sabbath” rest and talked about our family, our church family and this community we are all working diligently to reach for Christ. We felt God’s peace in where we are relationally and spiritually, and could not have been more connected.
We had to cut it short and make last-minute flight changes that created difficulties (a long layover in Phoenix, getting in at midnight, early meetings the next morning, a two-hour time change and car parking that was not the best). Tired, and anticipating mounds of work that was waiting, as we drove home the I405 traffic, even at midnight, was anything but light due to construction. Sandy commented on my driving and instead of slowing down so she’d feel safe I jammed on and off the gas pedal for about five seconds. That’s how long it took me to get a clue and stop being a jerk. I repented to her and we made it home to a sloppy reception from our three dogs and went to bed in peace.
I tell that story simply so you’ll see how easy it is for our selfish side to overtake our godly side. In those five seconds of childish behavior, there was a check in my gut that said, “Really, you’re going to act like that?” I thought about the great week we’d had and how I could ruin the whole experience based solely on my ego! I’m a good driver. Who does she think she’s telling to slow down? This is the lie that Satan told Adam in the Garden of Eden. “Adam, do it your way, you’re smarter than God. In fact, you will be like God.” This could have been a perfect example of “Pride goes before destruction” (Proverbs 16:18).
I am thankful for that little check in my gut and have heard the voice long enough to know that God is speaking to me. It reminds me of that great verse that says, “Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves” (Philippians 2:3 NIV). When we follow these simple instructions we can go to bed in peace. Is there someone you need to go back to and offer repentance for your egotistical behavior? As for me, I make a terrible god, but when I listen to Him life is good. Listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit and live. You might even get sloppy kisses from those who love you :).